The ultimate 6 day travel list

I am going to Ubud Bali for a 6 day yoga retreat 

Here's what I am packing for my 6 days travel 

One medium size bag ( 24 inch) 

One backpack 

5 days of pajamas /night suits 

5 -7 bras /braletts and panties 

4-5 swim suits , 2 cover ups

1 towel 

4 -5 yoga pants/leggings /shorts

4 -5 t-shirts/ camis /yoga tops 

2 -3 dresses - depends on weather 

1 cardigan 

1 lite jacket 

1 mau blanket 

2-3 shorts /pants /denims for excursions /airline

2-3 tops for excursions /airline

1 pair of tennis shoes + 2-3 pairs of socks 

2-3 pairs of slippers - includes indoors and outdoors

2 fanny packs 

1 bag for excursions 

1 hat 

1 yoga mat , yoga blocks , anything yoga related 

1 portable fan 

1 universal charger 

1 regular charger 

1 power bank 

1 journal 

1 sunglasses 

1 ear pods / headphones 

Toiletries:

Hand wipes 

First aide 

Make up supplies : blush, lipstick, brush , hairbrush 

Accessories : rings, earrings , necklace

Snacks /edibles : proteins, candies, mint, chai, liquid iv , nuts, raisins, 

Medications : 

Morning routine : 

- nuts 

- chai

- pills

- Lavender 

- cream and lip balm 

- Vaseline 

Night routine: 

- chanting beads 

- rollon 

-blanket 

- Night pills 

-eye mask 

- hair tie 

-melatonin

- cream 

- water bottle 

Misc: 

Samsung watch

Cash - both us dollars and indian

Passport most important and any visa related papers 

Mosquito repellent 

Rain poncho 

Luggage locks 

Neck pillow 

Few long sleeves - indian dress 

Starting over - and how!

 Well, I am on a mission, taking care of self mission ! No one will do it for you and best of all, no one will do it as good as you do it for yourself. Isn't it? 

I used to love to travel but the 'relationships' marriage', ' husband' ' best studies' ' keeping everyone else happy' ' money making' and ofcourse ' having a kid' , all kinds of pauses kept me away from self care, travel, and much more , like writing a blog for many years. 

I am finally able to come out of that bubble of a conservative shy ever-so-influenced-by-others girl phase and spread those wings to do something for self, stand tall for myself and my mini version , my daughter . 

This one will be one of a kind- i will be writing a whole lot and more ! So excited for giving self this gift of retreat to Bali.. 

Keep following this space for more 

A day to remember - 11/ 20/2021

 I am writing after many days. I had a writer's block! Today, when my 3 year old daughter noticed something that wasn't surprisingly but sad. 

She exclaimed to her father " Daddy, why you don't like Mamma?" 

That naive innocent child was able to notice that her parents have drifted apart and don't like each other as much as they like her 

It sad, but a fact that we have nothing in common anymore. 

we have nothing but her left anymore 

there isn't anger behind our happy faces 

but there is no actual happiness behind those happy faces

it wont be too long that everyone will notice the distance 

the broken relationship that we cant piece together anymore

 life has been hard and we have been harder on each other 

even more on this naive soul who doesn't know what's coming. 

this was a day to remember. a day which I will tell her all about. 

Out of Control

There are days & nights when I feel 

Out of Control & out of my own battle with life 

While tears roll down my eyes 

I wipe them to self doubt & self pity 

If I was just seriously Naive or just Stupid back then

Out of Control I was then , just 10 years back 

When I just wanted to get married and settle down 

With someone who would carry my baggage and lead me on 

I realise I was Naive and stupid to do make such influenced decisions. 

I kept on my ride and stride as a strong woman , supporting wife , unappreciated underdog 

I felt I was the leader in this journey , making my own decisions 

However realized it so late, that all my decisions aren't mine but only a sacrifice 

A compromise for a selfish dominating  husband . 

My life stands in front of me like a 

A series of regrets that I can't change.

Out of control , my life seems totally in Someone else's control. 

Rediscover your past

 The Past can be intoxicating , it can draw you in 

It can create the illusion that things were better or could have been better 

You were happier or the experiences would be richer back then 

It can also debilitate you

leaving you stuck & vulnerable in the memories of pain, heartbreak, disappointment 

holding you back from even attempting another shot at happiness 

They say if we dont learn from past mistakes, we are bound to repeat them 

But can we also learn to let go of the past 

learn to forge ahead , keeping the knowledge close 

but not letting it overtake our ability to try again, to feel again?

- Excerpt from " the last letter from your lover" 

Why do we think What we think - Part I

 We think what we think because We are unfulfilled souls

I am one , and him being another one

We think what we think because we miss the other side of ourselves,

the one that we wish to be, the one that is greener & 

the one that we think would be happier than this one. 

We think & think, but we overthink only somethings! 

We overthink about someone or some situations we can't live without in the past or future. 

We overthink because we can't live in the present. 

I overthink about someone, during my waking hours in the day, my mindful hours 

I overthink about him, stalk, meditate, fascinate rain or shine hours 

I am writing about someone I know for 12 years but mostly through a screen 

I am writing about someone I fell for, loved, drifted & again fell for multiple times 

I am writing about someone I never touched in person, but feel his touch in every bit of my body 

I am writing about someone who I regret of not being with when I wake up every next day

life has kept us only at mercy of a smart phone for so many years, 

that he starts feeling unreal, just a fantasy, just someone in my dreams 

The most handsome, tall, dark eyed, humble voice calling my name 

I stop, stumble, turn back to see if It's him. 

 

 

Mental Fatigue

 

When Days feels longer than Life

You keep yourself Engaged & wise 

2 months in second Lockdown, Life feels like its stand still 

The lockdown fatigue sets in & bogs you down

You still smile , with the hope of getting back to normalcy,

Because one day it will & you will see. 

You will look back to these days 

And be proud of every effort you put in, to make ways.

Proud of yourself & the ones you care 

For becoming a better & stronger version of yourself, now & elsewhere.