When Days feels longer than Life
You keep yourself Engaged & wise
2 months in second Lockdown, Life feels like its stand still
The lockdown fatigue sets in & bogs you down
You still smile , with the hope of getting back to normalcy,
Because one day it will & you will see.
You will look back to these days
And be proud of every effort you put in, to make ways.
Proud of yourself & the ones you care
For becoming a better & stronger version of yourself, now & elsewhere.
12-05-21
Life has been very generous , I am grateful about that.
A loving Family is all I could ask
But life is full of mistakes, I regret
Only if I can make it right , and not look back.
Marrying some stranger, who doesn’t think about anyone except himself
Leaving my career, just to get married
It feels so heavenly to start with, that feeling vanishes when reality strikes.
You make compromises to keep moving ahead in life
Ignore your intense feelings, that may possibly arise
When you love someone, being selfish is not in the books
Instead you dedicate yourself to their nooks.
Becoming a mother once was one of these dedication
To kill the boredom & loneliness
However becoming a mother twice would be a compromise yet again
You do mistake once, twice & but third time it becomes a habit
I don’t want to keep letting go & compromise my life
For other’s happiness , for their selfish desires.
I am going to make a choice for myself today
I am going to not compromise today!
For me to be strong & selfish
Because I exist. Like literally.
No one to appreciate. No one to care.
I have to look out for myself all bare.
I can’t bring up a child in a world of misery, pandemic & hatred.
I can’t bring up a child with male dominance.
I have to stand up for myself & never look back.
