Out of Control & out of my own battle with life
While tears roll down my eyes
I wipe them to self doubt & self pity
If I was just seriously Naive or just Stupid back then
Out of Control I was then , just 10 years back
When I just wanted to get married and settle down
With someone who would carry my baggage and lead me on
I realise I was Naive and stupid to do make such influenced decisions.
I kept on my ride and stride as a strong woman , supporting wife , unappreciated underdog
I felt I was the leader in this journey , making my own decisions
However realized it so late, that all my decisions aren't mine but only a sacrifice
A compromise for a selfish dominating husband .
My life stands in front of me like a
A series of regrets that I can't change.
Out of control , my life seems totally in Someone else's control.